My Personal Testimony

In 1986 I was born to a woman who didn’t want me. I lived with her until my younger brother Josh was born a year later. Once Josh was born we were placed into Foster Care. Our birth mother had alcohol, drug and sex addictions. For the next few years I lived with numerous families and in many unhealthy environments. Sexual, verbal and sometimes physical abuse were part of my life until I was adopted into a great, Christian family at age 6. Jere and Julie White adopted my brother and I and had previously adopted 2 older boys who were cousins. My mom told me that the months previous to my adoption, (when we lived with them as foster kids) every night I would pray and ask God to please let them adopt us. When I was adopted I was shown lots of love that was unfamiliar to me. I reacted positively to it and thought that my life would be a fairy tale from that day on. When I was 6 I asked Jesus to be my Savior. The first time I ever sang in front of people was at a Christmas program at age 6. My mom had me sing Silent Night and I learned all the verses by memory. Afterwards my mom a got a prophetic word that God would use me as a Singer for His glory. When I was 8 I was sexually abused for 4 years. I became more introverted and found my friends in books and movies. I was rejected by my peers in School and became the object of teasing, laughter, etc. I was treated so meanly that in a sense I became almost immune to the harsh words I would hear. Because of everything in my past I was a hurt, rejected, and abused, angry mess. I began to take my anger out on my mom and do poorly in school. However, I excelled in putting on a mask and being the “perfect little Christian girl”. I was the “Go-to” person for anything musical, if anything needed done people came to me to get it done. I began to find my identity in serving and doing things rather than finding myself in Christ. I truly loved God and wanted to serve Him but was so hurt and angry I never really let Him take control. I began to immerse myself in ministry without working through all the hurt from my past. As I got older my mom began to notice this and asked me to go to therapy, which I did. It helped and God began to tear at my heartstrings and show me the depths of His love. I rededicated my heart to Jesus when I was 15 and began to go hardcore after His heart. I began to lead worship and began tinkering around on my keyboard. It wasn’t until 2005 when I was in Fire in the Night when the Lord did a great work in my heart in helping me overcome the pain. I was in Track 1 when we did the Deep/Inner Healing course for 3 days and it was intense. I began to ask God to work in me and change me and do what He needed to do. I got hit hardcore by God and left a changed person. A week later I was in the Prayer Room and was supposed to sing that night but for some reason I asked for a friend to sub for me. I was sitting in the back on the floor praying when someone was on the mic and said “You cannot love others or truly love God until You love Yourself.” As I heard that I began to weep and weep for 3 hours. God began to tear another layer of hurt and rejection off of me. My life has held a lot of pain, hurt, and rejection but God has been so faithful to me. I am one of the few children to be adopted into Christian families and am so grateful for the Hand of God on me. My desire is to serve God with complete abandonment, to sing for Him and Him only, to minister through song and the prophetic to see Jesus glorified!

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AC says:

April 29, 2010 at 8:32 pm

Amen! God is so amazing how He restores what the locusts have eaten. Praise Him!

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Jonathan Sigmon says:

May 5, 2010 at 3:26 am

Woah. That was awesome. Praise God for His redemption in your life! We are all on a journey and I was excited to read yours and begin to follow your life online.

AND we are neighbors! I am a youth pastor and worship leader at Calvary Assembly in Chili. I’d love to meet you sometime. Thanks again for your vulnerability.

Jonathan

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- sierra white says:
  
  May 5, 2010 at 1:43 pm
  
  hey, i actually used to attend the fathers house in Chili once in a while and go to Access sometimes. I used to live in Henrietta until the end of the summer. I will actually be in Riochester at the end of June for a week. I would love to meet you and maybe visit your church!
  
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Nanci Craig says:

May 19, 2010 at 2:10 pm

My precious sister – what a beautiful history you have in God and all the Glory you give to Him lifts Him up and draws the brokenhearted to see hope and healing! Hang in there the devil hates your life because it is fragrant and filled with the message of true Love! All you go through He will direct you into His unending grace and Love – people will disappoint us but that is ok we can just turn to His loving arms and find grace to love them and forgive them! My story is much like yours and I celebrate with you! Today especially as it is my birthday and I too being adopted am grateful for a family who loved me – I pray soon they will know fully the Love of Jesus as their Lord and Savior! Bless you Sierra you are a treasure!

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Grettel says:

September 7, 2010 at 3:30 pm

Powerful testimony! May God continue to use you for his kindgom and be a light to the nations. Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. I have been abused in my past and God has been so faithful to repair and restore his children. God is doing a work in us, and has allowed painful sitautions to take place so that we can bring hope to the hopeless! God Bless you!! may his favor and his face shine upon you always!

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Conrad says:

March 6, 2011 at 2:31 am

Thank you so much for sharing..

This came to me as i was reading your powerful testimony.

Jer 31:13 Then shall the virgin rejoice in the dance, both young men and old together: for I will turn their mourning into joy, and will comfort them, and make them rejoice from their sorrow.

I have noticed that the people that seem to love Jesus the most are the ones that have been through the most. And what they have been through becomes an aspect of their ministry.

Keep it up!

Jesus Rules!

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Camilla says:

March 17, 2011 at 8:54 pm

Dear Sierra,

we are all followers of Christ, but I believe we can admire and take some people as an example too. I read his testimony and found it pretty beautiful. It’s beautiful to see God working, it’s wonderful to see people surrendering themselves to the Lord, accepting and fulfilling His calling to our lives … That through your testimony people come to know the Lord, all his goodness, mercy and infinite love. That you continue to be a blessing in the lives of so many other people as you has been on mine with all your boldness, wisdom. God bless you.

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spanishswag says:

October 30, 2011 at 2:10 am

wow…thank you for sharing hot sauce….and thank you Jesus for adopting us all…..

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Denise says:

November 2, 2011 at 10:00 am

Wow! Wonderful testimony May God continue to bless u & may u continue allow God to work in you so you may continue to grow and be that shining light to many for Gods glory! God bless you today & always

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godschick says:

March 29, 2012 at 3:52 am

Wow. Your testimony is really powerful. God has great things ahead for you. The call of God costs a lot…but so worth it, like you know. You give up to go up and we go through tests that turn into testimonies that bring life and healing and deliverance to so many people. Love your blog and how many people have been blessed by your testimony. Thank you and blessings!

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